Sunday, August 28, 2011

Sometimes I feel like a failure....I gave up alot when I got pregnant at a young age. I decided not to go to school because I did not think I would be able to do it. I didn't pursue my dreams: basically I didn't pursue anything except my relationship. I put everything I had into being a mother and eventually a wife. Shortly after I had my first child I got pregnant with my second. My two boys are fourteen months apart and it was very hard being 21 years of age to raise them in a appropriate manner. I continued down the same path for the next 15 years devoting my life to my children and my husband.  I did try and go back to school a couple of times but for one reason or another it never worked.  I had a successful business for a while but unfortunately I also had to sell it.  It seemed that no matter what I did it didn't work.  The only thing that seemed to stay the same in my life was my family.  Finally in 2010 my family fell apart also.  I am currently getting a divorce and the only thing I thought was a constant in my life is now gone.  Thank god I still have my kids and my parents.  I feel like a failure because nothing I have done thus far I have succeeded in.  I have come back to school to prove to myself that I am not a failure and I can succeed.  I know this time things are going to be different because I refuse to let myself be a failure!